Family and friends,
So this week was wicked AWESOME.Hard as always, but just really cool.
Were we not so blessed by conference this weekend? I loved it and can't wait to read the last session that we didn't get to watch.
As I have been expressing lately (maybe too much).... I've been struggling hard core to find some motivation since I got here to Lux. I was struggling to feel the spirit. I just was not really wanting to go out and talk to people who hated me and I was cold and just wanted to not do it anymore. I would do it anyways of course, but it was simply because I knew that I had to. Well for the past while I've just been praying to find some inspiration. And it didn't seem to be coming. I tried sacrificing things and fasting and studying... and it just wasn't working. I felt so lost. Why was I so motivated in Rennes? Why not now? What changed?
Well I don't really know what changed or why I was having such a hard time, But I know that this week, I changed. We had zone conference down in Paris and for the days preceding I just prayed so fervently for the answers to my struggles. And I sure did find them. It wasn't words that changed me, but for the 6 hour conference I felt the spirit the whole time. I felt it softening my heart and purifying me. I felt it confirm the goal that our mission has (for each companionship to baptize a family before Christmas). I felt him whisper to me that its so true, the gospel is so so true. I was found.
And then President told us what we needed to do. He said that we simply need to talk to everyone (he literally said exactly what elder Ballard said in general conference).... ha...probably cause Ballard was just here in our mission a few months ago. I used to be SO good at talking to everyone... but lately I've struggled. but because the spirit was so strong... I like couldn't stay in my chair. I just wanted to go out and talk to everyone. I made a chart in my planner of how many people I talk to and their responses to us. its interesting. The president said that for every 1000 people we talk to, one will be baptized. ya.... if I want some baptisms, boy oh boy do i need to start talking to people. Ha... its like the saying what I learned when I worked at Boeing "the first 1000 words that you say when you enter into the work field will be wrong... so just say them and get them out of your mouth!° Well I need to just talk to those 1000 people and just get them out of the way and then cherish that one who wants to change.
Well, the morning after conference I had never been so happy to talk to people. I was still scared out of my mind and had to jump over that inner hurdle, but God totally was watching over me and the first lady I talked to said to me... hey I think I should go to your church. Ha, I said yes you should! Come to conference! She didn't come of course but it totally let me know god was there watching and that there are people who want to come! I just need to find them!
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| Watching Conference With My District |
We had a SUPER powerful lesson with a woman named Maggy. Shes been taking lessons on and off for 15 years and her husband is so active. She totally opened up to us and we were so incredibly bold with her. She up forward and straight. We call her everyday to remind her to pray and we are fasting for her. hopefully next week shell have gotten some answers. I feel she has real good potential.
We also visited some non-actives who just complained their heads off about n'importe quoi. Especially about the members not being missionaries. And after a while I was just like yo... stop. Everything you are saying so not true. Maybe it was when you were in the church, but its not now. I took them to the work of salvation website and just said that now more than ever the church is pushing the members to do missionary work... and they were like shocked and I could tell they felt ashamed and rebuked. But then they invited us over for dinner and drove us home... ? Maybe boldness is love sometimes? It was a neat experience.
Well, just because most of you live in UTAH doesn't mean you are exceptions to our leaders' council to pray for the missionaries by name, their investigators, and for mission experiences. I hope you all follow their council and that you can all each bring someone closer to Christ.
Thank you for your prayers. I liked something a missionary told me this week. "If you love your missionary, pray for their investigators" Its so true. How pride and joy are our investigators and they need your prayers way more than i do. Here are some names you can pray for:
Diana
Anne
Ana
Maggy
Nicole
and Adele
I love you and pray for you as welll
Lots of hugs and big kisses
Sœur Kohlert
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